they're smiling :)

once my friend asked me, what exactly my point to join and build this foundation together. Since I think its really string attached when your answer is " able to reward or planting your stock for heaven" and bla bla bla.. I just simply answer ; cause I wanna do a good deeds with you guys.

so here we are, had some fun with the orphanage. Playing games, quiz, watched the movie and lunch. Its quite nice, although while the preparation certainly there some constrain with the budget,personnel, and etc.But we nailed it!

anyway, while i'm sitting there with them, I'm beyond my imagination and thinking whats on earth could make them happy? How could they're able to get a full laughter like that? Well, of course there's a lot of thing could make you happy.Its good to contemplate and evaluate our lives regularly, don't you think? But the act of contemplating and evaluating doesn't always hate to resolve around our weakness, our faults, our area of improvements..it's also good to remind ourselves about our strengths, achievements, anything positive so that we appreciate ourselves and lives better..sound of rain make me happy,..think of things that go beyond the tangibles,,things that underline our positive value.Happiness is a mindset. You don't create it, and its not a destination. This life is your to enjoy.

Life doesn't end when we die. Life ends when we decide to stop touching each other, through our hands and hearts. When I no longer exist in your heart, what is there to share? And when life takes me away, who will be there to care?. Let's not stop sharing .... :)

menurut saya, ucapan adalah janji :)

Beberapa waktu yang lalu saya menemukan blog salah satu comic Stand Up Comedy Indonesia, Ernest Prakasa, didalam salah satu postingnya ia membahas bagaimana ia diajarkan untuk memegang dan konsisten dalam setiap ucapannya. berikut kutipan dari postingannya ;

Seperti bocah laki2 pada umumnya, saat melewati toko mainan, saya pun merengek minta dibelikan.Pada saat itu, respon ibu saya adalah, “Iya, nanti ya”. Dan kami pun lanjut berkeliling, lalu pulang ke rumah kakak ibu saya. Saya pun lupa akan kejadian di toko mainan tadi.

Malamnya, saat ayah saya menjemput saya dan ibu saya di rumah kakaknya, saya kembali merengek di jalan pulang. “Tadi kata mama nanti, nanti, manaaa? Kapan beli mainannya?”, kira2 begitulah protes saya.

“Bener kamu tadi bilang mau beliin?”

“Iya, tapi udahlah gausah. Mainan di rumah udah numpuk pa!”

“Ya ga bisa. Biar gimanapun, kamu udah janji.”

sebenarnya mungkin hal ini simple,tapi ngena banget. Apalagi buat orang yg tipikal ga-enakan dan suka kepikiran jenis saya.ijinkan saya sedikit memuji diri sendiri, namun kadang hal se simpel ini -yang mungkin menurut beberapa orang tidak sesimpel itu *baca:saya- bisa bikin hubungan anda dengan orang lain akan mengalami goncangan. Misalnya contoh kejadian perkara yang saya alami beberapa hari yang lalu. Seperti biasa jadwal pulang kantor saya pukul 17.00, namun jarang sekali kami pulang teng-go,dan pada hari itu sekitar jam 6 lewat saya sudah sampai di St.Sudirman, karena kereta pada telat,maka iseng saya bbm teman yang kebetulan akan naik rketa yang sama

saya : Eh, bareng gak? Kretanya udah di st.kemayoran..lo dmana?

si teman : Gw udah naik kopaja kok. mau nungguin gw ga? Biar bareng,kebetulan gw ada titipan nih buat lo.

saya: oh oke..gw tunggu di st.sudirman ya..gw udah disini.

Ok gw tunggu. Itu adalah sebuah janji menurut saya. Karena itulah saya mengabaikan beberapa kereta yang seharusnya bisa saya naiki untuk sampai tujuan saya,demi menunggu kedatangan si teman dan naik kreta yang sama.Namun yang terjadi adalah.. 40 menit berlalu menunggu siteman,tiba tiba ia mem-bbm saya, isinya ; "eh lo dmana?Gw udah naik nih" .BAM!! saya bingung harus jawab apa. hanya bisa diam dan yaaa ngedumel deh dikit dikit. Lalu apa lagi yang harus saya lakukan? rasanya gondoook sekali. cerita keteman saya yang lain,mereka akan berkata "nah lo bodoh,knapa harus nungguin"

Ya, karena saya sudah berjanji. Walau tidak terucap "Ok gw janji nungguin lo", tapi itu (seharusnya) merupakan invisible commitment antara saya dan teman saya tersebut.Dan akan sangat menyebalkan jika dilanggar atau tidak ditepati. Beberapa kejadian seperti "ntar gw bbm y" dan pada akhirnya tidak terlaksana pasti tak asing dan pernah kita lakukan.

Sounds so simple, yet so difficult to implement. But then again, difficult doesn’t mean impossible, rite?

so lets keep our word and promises ;)

#ageless movie: My Girl (1991)

My Girl is one of the movies that never seems to age, well at least for me. When a movie's plot is set in an earlier time period, it is forever stuck in the year that it's portrayed, in1972. In my mind Macaulay Culkin is 11 years old super cutie and Jamie lee Curtis still looks super hot in denim bell-bottoms. It took me a while to finally found this movie and download it. Thankyou super thanks to indowebster ;)

This film is fantastic!! Honestly, I have never cried so much (well,ok its a lie ) watching a movie. But even though the bits towards the end which will have you bawling are what the film is remembered for, everything in this film is just...fantastic! Part are hilarious , parts are just sweet and by the end of the film, you are genuinely caring for the characters.

The strength of "My Girl" isn't its story, but its little nuances of innocent bliss. Vada willingly shows a group of glowing boys a dead body. As the ride their bikes, Vada and Thomas J. sing `The Name Game'. When writing poems `from the soul', Vada writes an ode to ice cream. The relationship between Harry and Shelly is sweet, too. Before their first date, Harry's womanizing brother points out that since Harry's last date, a sexual revolution has occurred. Of course, Shelly only desires a proper and old-fashioned gentleman, which very much complicates their first date.

Oh, Vada. Why did you have to grow up and star in that mediocre sequel a few years later? And Thomas J., you were so cute before you started looking like a distant cousin to Draco Malfoy. Although I have to give you and Mila Kunis props for defying the Hollywood relationship statistic. I'm thinking you two will be the Kurt Russell and Goldie Hawn of our generation.

these are a few memorable subs ;)

Vada: Why do you think people want to get married?
Thomas J. Sennett: When you get old, you just have to.

Vada: I'm gonna marry Mr. Bixler.
Thomas J. Sennett: You can't marry a teacher, it's against the law.
Vada: It is not.
Thomas J. Sennett: Yes it is, 'cause then he'll give you all A's, and it won't be fair.

Thomas J. Sennett: What do you think it's like?
Vada Sultenfuss: What?
Thomas J. Sennett: Heaven.
Vada Sultenfuss: I think... everybody gets their own white horse and all they do is ride them and eat marshmallows all day. And everybody's best friends with everybody else. When you play sports, there's no teams, so nobody gets picked last.
Thomas J. Sennett: But what if you're afraid to ride horses?
Vada Sultenfuss: Doesn't matter 'cause they're not regular horses. They've got wings. And it's no big deal if you fall 'cause you'll just land in a cloud.

WATCH IT!!!

got me line

this is my first dress. Officially do-it-my self. I'm getting attached to this sewing thing, hope it could stay for a long time :) I can't wait to be able making a dress for my besties and for my self (of course) Lets keep the hope up up up in the air .

anyway, I randomly blog walking to Zarry Hendrik's Tumblr and found this one :

Ini waktunya mengejar ketertinggalanku. Bukan lagi mengejar yang meninggalkanku.

*yeah!Hit!Punch!!Kick!!

pillow talk

To be honest, sewing my own clothes always be my passion. But again, never comes that easy :)

I already had my own sewing machine since a couple months ago, but never ever really touch it.Too many distraction. So last sunday, I got nothing to do on my free day so I collect a bunch of leftover cloth and turn it into a pillow :)

the super nice cloth

sketch it first

welcoming the "HERO"

First I cut the cloth into a pattern, just a simple one, make it rectangular and triangle..

I did challenge my self to make an elephant pattern, just a super easy one...

Voila!!!!

YAY!!!

I am super excited!

can't wait to collect another piece of cloth and got my self busy with the sewing machine again..

and the one day i'm gonna be able to make my own ready to wear dress :)

#random

-you never know how strong you are

until being strong is the only choice you have -

attack!!

this impulsive thing is killin' me

obviously!!

#random

karna udah temenan,,jadi misalnya janji kecil-simple-g ditepatin-tanpa -kabar-terlebih-dahulu boleh dianggap wajar dan dimaklumi aja yah??

promise.

i'm the one who always treat a promise with all the best I can do. I always shipped anyone who can keep their promise. Even for the tiny little one . That's why I always hope that my friend keep the promise their made to me. Sounds possessive , I know. But isn't it nice when you're hoping something had been told to you and it become real? even the famous people said ; don't make a promise that you can't keep.

oke ini sedikit curhat,untuk janji kecil seperti, "besok janjian di depan taman jam 7 pagi ya"..

ketika saya meng 'iya'kan janji itu, otak saya akan langsung bekerja dan membayangkan berarti besok saya tidak boleh tidur lagi setelah solat subuh, berarti saya besok harus naik kreta jam segini, untuk itu keperluan besok harus disiapkan malam ini, berarti malam ini harus tidur jam segini..blaa.bllaa.blaa.. yaaah, hal hal kecil yang harus saya pikirkan agar saya tidak terlambat ke pertemuan janji itu. Walaupun pada akhirnya saya sedikit terlambat bangun dan harus mengeluarkan dana yang sedikit lebih banyak demi naik kendaraan tercepat (baca:ojeg) untuk sampai di tujuan tepat waktu, well at least i'm trying my best to fill it.

tapi kenyataannya? Teman saya muncul pukul 7.45 dan tanpa kabar bahwa ia akan terlambat. Sekian PING sudah terkirim dan keringat mengucur di dahi karena menunggu dengan mati gaya di taman itu selama 45 menit. Padahal itu hanya janji untuk berangkat bersama ke sebuah maal yang jaraknya 5 menit jalan kaki dari tempat saya menunggu. pasti anda berpikir "kenapa saya g langsung aja ke mall itu dan menunggunya disana?".. Because when we made promise, we make it true.

The worst part is,,ketika teman saya sampai di lokasi, tidak ada perkataan maaf keluar dari mulutnya :)

#damnyoubadday

#justsayin'

Terlalu berusaha menjadi pacar yang baik,lalu lupa bagaimana menjadi teman yang baik : Selalu berusaha menjadi teman yang baik,lantas lupa bersikap sebagai pacar yang baik.

Siang ini sayat membuat kalimat seperti itu di halaman facebook saya. Entah kenapa tiba tiba kalimat itu melayang layang di pikiran sejak tadi pagi. Setelah menekan tombol enter, tak lama kemudia 3 teman meng - like this kan status itu, dan beberapa teman langsung seketika mem Buzz dan menyapa di chatbox facebook. Rata rata pertanyaan mereka serupa ; Apa yang saya pikirkan?

what'd comes to my mind?
well, mungkin karena beberapa bulan belakangan ini saya mendengar cerita mengenai seseorang yang begitu loyal terhadap pasangannya,sehingga ia rela untuk tidak datang ke acara pertunangan sahabatnya. Dan ada pula yang bercerita bagaimana temannya slalu ada untuk nya dalam setiap masalah yang ia hadapi, yang akhirnya menyebabkan temannya end the relationship with her boyf.Then it hit me. I think i'm the one who always trying hard to keep my close friend in one circle, so hard sometimes. And I think my boyf (well,ex now #pfft) never go a problem by that. To be truth, I'm already felt as the -left-behind-friend for this couple months.I think my besties just trying so hard to being a perfect and happly ever after girlfriend, so that she 's forget and ignoring us for a moment...well 'till recently.

I'm not upset.. I just feel sad.

mylo - xyloto

Can we please give them the most adorable music video award right now?



Christopher Martin on a unicycle dressed as an elephant.
your argument is invalid!

way way hotter than Mr.Levine

Paradise.
When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach so
She ran away in her sleep
And dreamed of
Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise
Every time she closed her eyes

When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach
And the bullets catch in her teeth
Life goes on, it gets so heavy
The wheel breaks the butterfly
Every tear a waterfall
In the night the stormy night she'll close her eyes
In the night the stormy night away she'd fly
And dreams of
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh
She'd dream of
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh

La-la-la-la-la-la-la
La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la
And so lying underneath those stormy skies
She'd say, "oh, ohohohoh I know the sun must set to rise"

This could be
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh

Straight to the point shall we?

tadi malam seorang sahabat yang jauh diseberang pulau sana berkeluh kesah tentang keadaannya disana.Tentang bagaimana ia mulai merasa jenuh, tentang bagaimana ia mulai merasa that city starting to rejecting her, tentang bagaimana kekhawatiran sang bunda yang mulai memaksanya untuk segera kembali ke Jakarta.Lalu ia mulai bertanya apa yang sebaiknya ia lakukan.Karna ia pun sebenarnya berniat untuk meninggalkan tempat itu."Mau kerja apa gw di Jakarta" Ujarnya..Spontan saya berkata " Ah,kamu terlalu meng-under estimate Jakarta".

Dan mulai lah ia menjabarkan rencana melancong nya di bulan bulan awal tahun depan. Ia pun sempat bercerita bagaimana lingkungan nya disana yang sepertinya kurang haus akan pengetahuan dan ia yang sepertinya mulai stuck karena tidak melanjutkan sekolah.

There! I don't know why..but it just suddenly come to my mind. i'm never be a jealous type to my friend. Altough after she spreading all next year trip plan,I ticklesly said " wow...bit show off ha ?" and we even laughed together.

Let's blame the period, I never been like this before. I never thinking to shallow to my self. I never said how sad my condition.I never ever feel this sorry to my self.Until later that night, I end up with a tweet in my twitter account.

"For those people who lucky enough to continue ur study,please do!Consider people who really want it,but they just not as lucky as u are :)"

I never continue my study.Its not because I don't want to,but it's because I can't.
Setelah kepergian papa, my family been fight all over our body to keep our standard of living in control.Well, my mom isn't working, so its leave me and my older brother.I'm doing good so far. but last night it really bumped me up. I really really hate my self for not being a rich person. Saya tahu tidak seharusnya saya seperti ini, dan believe me..ini tidak pernah terjadi sebelumnya. This vulnerable situation killin' me in a minute.

So, I know I'm not in right position to tellin' you this...But seriously, seandainya kamu berada di posisi yang beruntung dan masiiiih saja mengeluh, well human..., coba deh lihat dari sudut pandang orang lain. Terkadang ketika kau mengeluh kepada mereka, dan mereka hanya tersenyum simpul..well,you hurt them without knowing it. So, try to keep your really really personal life and personal whinny to yourself, or throw it to people who "more" than you.

m.e.l.a.n.c.h.o.l.y ?

Hi you...
surely this one gonna be my last post about you (*finger cross)

Kamu yang selalu aneh jika kusebut namanya, karena memang tak pernah salah satu diantara kita mengira ini akan terjadi. Walau semua orang menduga, tapi slalu kita ingkari sampai akhirnya harus disembunyikan. Sebenarnya aku tidak suka sembunyi - sembunyi, namun bersamamu terlalu nyaman dan menyenangkan.Membuat saya menerima keadaan apa ada nya. Demi kebaikan bersama,katamu.

Selalu menyenangkan jika bersamamu..Jutaan wacana yang direncanakan hanya berujung menjadi bahan tertawaan,,serta kencan manis lewat layar skype terkadang cukup bagiku.

Ketika orang - orang terdekatku mulai menggelengkan kepala dan berkata, STOP akan hubungan ini sebelum kita melangkah terlalu jauh.Aku tau aku hanya menyiakan waktu ku dengan mu untuk suatu hal yang tak pasti. Kita menyebut Tuhan dengan nama yang berbeda, walau tak masalah buat mu dan keluarga mu, akan jadi masalah besar untuk ku. Aku memang bukan penganut Islam yang taat, tapi aku cukup mengerti dan mempercayai bahwa Allah adalah Tuhanku, dan kau pun percaya bahwa Yesus adalah Tuhanmu. Dan tak mungkin untuk ku menyuruhmu mengkhianati agamamu, sedangkan aku tak mau sedikit pun berpikir untuk mengkhianati agamaku.

Hal ini membawa kita memutuskan untuk saling menjarak dan bersiap menciptakan ruangan lain untuk orang lain. Kita merasa sanggup.Yaah,setidak aku merasa sanggup.Walau pada kenyataan, tahukah kamu bahwa setiap kali kamu bercerita tentang gadis gadis yang mendekatimu aku hanya bisa diam dan menanggapinya dengan tawa yang dipaksa. Tahukah kamu bahwa setiap teman yang kau "sodorkan" padaku hanya akan membuat tekuk di wajahku semakin kencang?. Tapi mau apa lagi..Memang inilah yang terjadi.

Disini kita terjatuh. Kali ini trotoar kita terlalu berbeda, sangat berbeda hingga rasanya tak mungkin kugambarkan zebra cross atau kubangun jembatan diatas untuk menyebranginya. Saat ini yang dapat kulakukan adalah meninggalkanmu. Aku muak dengan kataan "mencoba", jika pada akhirnya akan berakhir buntu.So this is it.

This is me who gave up on our situation. This is me who enjoyed every little detail about you.This is me who's gonna always thank you for your kindness, your lack of sensitivity, your stubborn-pain-in-the-ass self, your sweet acted-which-you-think-never-quite-romantic-but-it is-to-me. Anyway,did you know about all those things? Did you know how happy I am doing this moment with you?I can not imagine one day we must part not because we no longer love. Just like to know the day when you will die, while you can not do anything but wait for the time it arrives.I also know we have been trying hard to figure out how to keep it together. But how hard we try, there will be times when we would leave each other and letting go. There's no a single minute I've been through with regretted being with you.

Thank you for loving me.

Yours.

another round / hopping island

YAY! they made me visit the thousand islands (wtf) two weeks in a row. Such a bless. So this post's gonna be about me and my vanity.lol. The group is my office mate, a couple person can't make it in the last minute so i decide to get my older brother's ass and kick the sea with us. North side is the decision, never been there before so I kinda super excited myself. Just like my imagination.. the islands..super clean!! I may say, the north side are the "silk stocking" side. The upper east side, - if you know what i mean-, why's that? because there are many small islands adjacent, you can reach them by 5 05 10 minutes boating. And partly of them is a private island. What made me most excited are the sand. They're super white!! and the pristine coral reefs and unspoiled. Not a lot of people go there,they prefer Tidung's or Pramuka which is more familiar. But I tell you my friend, this one is totally worth to go for it!!

MAJOR FACT : our former president,Soeharto, own THREE of them!!!

the power of stealing someone's thunder

Frank Buffay Jr.: What's with him?
Phoebe: Umm, sympathy pains. I thought it was really sweet at first, but now I think he's just trying to steal my thunder.

For real, I don't really get it for what happen to lately. Maybe its not the right moment to using this magic word.Well, lets talk about this kind of stealing thunder thing.. : interrupt people

"Hey remember when,"
"No"
"And the,"
"No"
"With the,"
"No"
"At the,"
"No""When he,""No"
"And then he,"
"No"

I hate it when people do that to me it is annoying.Yea, and it get's annoying but sometimes people say "Oh, sorry what did you say?.

"Arrrgghh!!!

I really get frustrated when someone interupts me when I am talking because sometimes it gets escpecially hard for me to find the right words to explain the topic of discussion I am talking about. It also frustrates me because when I get interupted while I am talking I almsot always forget what I was talking about after the person interupted me has finished. I just honestly don't get how people can't just be quiet, wait their turn and manage their impulsivity because it is just plain rude.

Some people do not even notice it when they're interrupting others.When someone talks while I am talking, I just try to make him/her understand that I don't wanna be interrupted by raising my voice.Or I also stare at the person with a neutral look, but this doesn't mean I appreciate this behavior.

I hate it when I am talking then all my friends start talking to each other over me.

My mother tends to interrupt me and my brother when we are having various conversations, and it is frustrating. However, I do interrupt my mother a lot when she is talking to me, but that is generally to say "Okay, I got it.", "I know what you are talking about much better than you do! Stop describing!", or "Quit whining!". Unfortunately, she always just ignores me and keeps on her bad habits. But oh well, you can't expect your parents to be perfect, right?

Lets just appreciate each other, I know sometimes we kinda get too excited when our friends telling a story, But hey..just wait till it finish.. Or they'll yelled at you

LET ME FINISH!!!!

Iphone for Steve = iPhone 4S

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary"


“Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes… the ones who see things differently — they’re not fond of rules… You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can’t do is ignore them because they change things… they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do.”


- Steve Jobs -
co-founder,chairman, and chief executive officer of Apple Inc.
chief executive of Pixar Animation Studios

May you rest in peace,Sir!

super weekie wupper treaty

weekend kemarin saya dan beberapa orang teman yang mempunyai niat yang sama, (baca: liburan) akhirnya memutuskan untuk tegur sapa ke laut di pulau Tidung. Perjalanan yang awalnya akan diikuti oleh 13 orang ini akhirnya berakhir di kami berdelapan. Berangkat!!

SUPER!!!Waktu liburan sangat berbanding lurus dengan tingkat kestress-an masing masing. Entah kenapa rasanya pemilihan tanggal ini sangat tepat. We did have a lot of fun.Although the sun smiling sooo bright and burn us, its not really a matter, when your eyes meet the blue skies and connect with the really blue and deep water....you'll feel blessed!! Bergabung dengan 2 orang teman baru di trip ini yang untungnya merupakan orang orang yang sangat menyenangkan.. they're really blend and fit to the group.Officially can't wait for my next trip..YAY!

"Let me be the one you call If you jump, I will break your fall, lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart, I can mend a broken heart, If you need to crash, then crash and burn, you're not alone"
-Crash and Burn by Savage Garden

dear,Akbari's #1

Welcome to the big three O!!


Happy birthday dear my big brother..

How do you expect me to remember your birthday, when you never look any older?

I'm so grateful that I have you as a brother, even though I super hate it when you put a wet towel carelessly,,when you take the dvd and not put it back in it case when you're done,,carelessly throw dirty clothes,,hate you for not being a morning person,,
your "knowledgeably-because-i'm-older-than-you",,hahahaha..
A better brother you couldn't be.

HAPPY HAPPY HOP HOP!!

We thought our little flight would never end
You were my brother
And I
I knew you were my friend

I wish that we
Were chasing after wooden airplanes
Once again

The roads been long
You know
I've done some good
And yes I guess I've done some bad

I've sung my songs
And you know
Sometimes I swear
I think I've gone completely mad
If the story of my life
Ever makes you sad

(B.J.Thomas - A song for my brother)

*cheer!

fire in the snow

Goodbye
Should be sayin’ that to you by now, shouldn’t I?
Layin’ down the law that I live by,Though maybe next time

I’ve got a thick tongue,Brimming with the words that go unsung
Simmer then the burn for a someone,A wrong one

My ‘why not me?’ philosophy began,

And I tell myself to let the story end,My heart will rest in someone else’s hand

Ooh, how’m I gonna get over you?

I’ll be alright, just not tonight

Someday, oh I wish you’d want me to stay
I’ll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday!

ps: its been a great 9 month..I do really hope i can let you go.

just not tonight..someday