#justsayin'

Terlalu berusaha menjadi pacar yang baik,lalu lupa bagaimana menjadi teman yang baik : Selalu berusaha menjadi teman yang baik,lantas lupa bersikap sebagai pacar yang baik.

Siang ini sayat membuat kalimat seperti itu di halaman facebook saya. Entah kenapa tiba tiba kalimat itu melayang layang di pikiran sejak tadi pagi. Setelah menekan tombol enter, tak lama kemudia 3 teman meng - like this kan status itu, dan beberapa teman langsung seketika mem Buzz dan menyapa di chatbox facebook. Rata rata pertanyaan mereka serupa ; Apa yang saya pikirkan?

what'd comes to my mind?
well, mungkin karena beberapa bulan belakangan ini saya mendengar cerita mengenai seseorang yang begitu loyal terhadap pasangannya,sehingga ia rela untuk tidak datang ke acara pertunangan sahabatnya. Dan ada pula yang bercerita bagaimana temannya slalu ada untuk nya dalam setiap masalah yang ia hadapi, yang akhirnya menyebabkan temannya end the relationship with her boyf.Then it hit me. I think i'm the one who always trying hard to keep my close friend in one circle, so hard sometimes. And I think my boyf (well,ex now #pfft) never go a problem by that. To be truth, I'm already felt as the -left-behind-friend for this couple months.I think my besties just trying so hard to being a perfect and happly ever after girlfriend, so that she 's forget and ignoring us for a moment...well 'till recently.

I'm not upset.. I just feel sad.

mylo - xyloto

Can we please give them the most adorable music video award right now?



Christopher Martin on a unicycle dressed as an elephant.
your argument is invalid!

way way hotter than Mr.Levine

Paradise.
When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach so
She ran away in her sleep
And dreamed of
Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise, Para-para-paradise
Every time she closed her eyes

When she was just a girl
She expected the world
But it flew away from her reach
And the bullets catch in her teeth
Life goes on, it gets so heavy
The wheel breaks the butterfly
Every tear a waterfall
In the night the stormy night she'll close her eyes
In the night the stormy night away she'd fly
And dreams of
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh
She'd dream of
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh

La-la-la-la-la-la-la
La-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la
And so lying underneath those stormy skies
She'd say, "oh, ohohohoh I know the sun must set to rise"

This could be
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Para-para-paradise
This could be
Para-para-paradise
Oh oh oh oh oh oh-oh-oh-oh

Straight to the point shall we?

tadi malam seorang sahabat yang jauh diseberang pulau sana berkeluh kesah tentang keadaannya disana.Tentang bagaimana ia mulai merasa jenuh, tentang bagaimana ia mulai merasa that city starting to rejecting her, tentang bagaimana kekhawatiran sang bunda yang mulai memaksanya untuk segera kembali ke Jakarta.Lalu ia mulai bertanya apa yang sebaiknya ia lakukan.Karna ia pun sebenarnya berniat untuk meninggalkan tempat itu."Mau kerja apa gw di Jakarta" Ujarnya..Spontan saya berkata " Ah,kamu terlalu meng-under estimate Jakarta".

Dan mulai lah ia menjabarkan rencana melancong nya di bulan bulan awal tahun depan. Ia pun sempat bercerita bagaimana lingkungan nya disana yang sepertinya kurang haus akan pengetahuan dan ia yang sepertinya mulai stuck karena tidak melanjutkan sekolah.

There! I don't know why..but it just suddenly come to my mind. i'm never be a jealous type to my friend. Altough after she spreading all next year trip plan,I ticklesly said " wow...bit show off ha ?" and we even laughed together.

Let's blame the period, I never been like this before. I never thinking to shallow to my self. I never said how sad my condition.I never ever feel this sorry to my self.Until later that night, I end up with a tweet in my twitter account.

"For those people who lucky enough to continue ur study,please do!Consider people who really want it,but they just not as lucky as u are :)"

I never continue my study.Its not because I don't want to,but it's because I can't.
Setelah kepergian papa, my family been fight all over our body to keep our standard of living in control.Well, my mom isn't working, so its leave me and my older brother.I'm doing good so far. but last night it really bumped me up. I really really hate my self for not being a rich person. Saya tahu tidak seharusnya saya seperti ini, dan believe me..ini tidak pernah terjadi sebelumnya. This vulnerable situation killin' me in a minute.

So, I know I'm not in right position to tellin' you this...But seriously, seandainya kamu berada di posisi yang beruntung dan masiiiih saja mengeluh, well human..., coba deh lihat dari sudut pandang orang lain. Terkadang ketika kau mengeluh kepada mereka, dan mereka hanya tersenyum simpul..well,you hurt them without knowing it. So, try to keep your really really personal life and personal whinny to yourself, or throw it to people who "more" than you.

m.e.l.a.n.c.h.o.l.y ?

Hi you...
surely this one gonna be my last post about you (*finger cross)

Kamu yang selalu aneh jika kusebut namanya, karena memang tak pernah salah satu diantara kita mengira ini akan terjadi. Walau semua orang menduga, tapi slalu kita ingkari sampai akhirnya harus disembunyikan. Sebenarnya aku tidak suka sembunyi - sembunyi, namun bersamamu terlalu nyaman dan menyenangkan.Membuat saya menerima keadaan apa ada nya. Demi kebaikan bersama,katamu.

Selalu menyenangkan jika bersamamu..Jutaan wacana yang direncanakan hanya berujung menjadi bahan tertawaan,,serta kencan manis lewat layar skype terkadang cukup bagiku.

Ketika orang - orang terdekatku mulai menggelengkan kepala dan berkata, STOP akan hubungan ini sebelum kita melangkah terlalu jauh.Aku tau aku hanya menyiakan waktu ku dengan mu untuk suatu hal yang tak pasti. Kita menyebut Tuhan dengan nama yang berbeda, walau tak masalah buat mu dan keluarga mu, akan jadi masalah besar untuk ku. Aku memang bukan penganut Islam yang taat, tapi aku cukup mengerti dan mempercayai bahwa Allah adalah Tuhanku, dan kau pun percaya bahwa Yesus adalah Tuhanmu. Dan tak mungkin untuk ku menyuruhmu mengkhianati agamamu, sedangkan aku tak mau sedikit pun berpikir untuk mengkhianati agamaku.

Hal ini membawa kita memutuskan untuk saling menjarak dan bersiap menciptakan ruangan lain untuk orang lain. Kita merasa sanggup.Yaah,setidak aku merasa sanggup.Walau pada kenyataan, tahukah kamu bahwa setiap kali kamu bercerita tentang gadis gadis yang mendekatimu aku hanya bisa diam dan menanggapinya dengan tawa yang dipaksa. Tahukah kamu bahwa setiap teman yang kau "sodorkan" padaku hanya akan membuat tekuk di wajahku semakin kencang?. Tapi mau apa lagi..Memang inilah yang terjadi.

Disini kita terjatuh. Kali ini trotoar kita terlalu berbeda, sangat berbeda hingga rasanya tak mungkin kugambarkan zebra cross atau kubangun jembatan diatas untuk menyebranginya. Saat ini yang dapat kulakukan adalah meninggalkanmu. Aku muak dengan kataan "mencoba", jika pada akhirnya akan berakhir buntu.So this is it.

This is me who gave up on our situation. This is me who enjoyed every little detail about you.This is me who's gonna always thank you for your kindness, your lack of sensitivity, your stubborn-pain-in-the-ass self, your sweet acted-which-you-think-never-quite-romantic-but-it is-to-me. Anyway,did you know about all those things? Did you know how happy I am doing this moment with you?I can not imagine one day we must part not because we no longer love. Just like to know the day when you will die, while you can not do anything but wait for the time it arrives.I also know we have been trying hard to figure out how to keep it together. But how hard we try, there will be times when we would leave each other and letting go. There's no a single minute I've been through with regretted being with you.

Thank you for loving me.

Yours.

another round / hopping island

YAY! they made me visit the thousand islands (wtf) two weeks in a row. Such a bless. So this post's gonna be about me and my vanity.lol. The group is my office mate, a couple person can't make it in the last minute so i decide to get my older brother's ass and kick the sea with us. North side is the decision, never been there before so I kinda super excited myself. Just like my imagination.. the islands..super clean!! I may say, the north side are the "silk stocking" side. The upper east side, - if you know what i mean-, why's that? because there are many small islands adjacent, you can reach them by 5 05 10 minutes boating. And partly of them is a private island. What made me most excited are the sand. They're super white!! and the pristine coral reefs and unspoiled. Not a lot of people go there,they prefer Tidung's or Pramuka which is more familiar. But I tell you my friend, this one is totally worth to go for it!!

MAJOR FACT : our former president,Soeharto, own THREE of them!!!

the power of stealing someone's thunder

Frank Buffay Jr.: What's with him?
Phoebe: Umm, sympathy pains. I thought it was really sweet at first, but now I think he's just trying to steal my thunder.

For real, I don't really get it for what happen to lately. Maybe its not the right moment to using this magic word.Well, lets talk about this kind of stealing thunder thing.. : interrupt people

"Hey remember when,"
"No"
"And the,"
"No"
"With the,"
"No"
"At the,"
"No""When he,""No"
"And then he,"
"No"

I hate it when people do that to me it is annoying.Yea, and it get's annoying but sometimes people say "Oh, sorry what did you say?.

"Arrrgghh!!!

I really get frustrated when someone interupts me when I am talking because sometimes it gets escpecially hard for me to find the right words to explain the topic of discussion I am talking about. It also frustrates me because when I get interupted while I am talking I almsot always forget what I was talking about after the person interupted me has finished. I just honestly don't get how people can't just be quiet, wait their turn and manage their impulsivity because it is just plain rude.

Some people do not even notice it when they're interrupting others.When someone talks while I am talking, I just try to make him/her understand that I don't wanna be interrupted by raising my voice.Or I also stare at the person with a neutral look, but this doesn't mean I appreciate this behavior.

I hate it when I am talking then all my friends start talking to each other over me.

My mother tends to interrupt me and my brother when we are having various conversations, and it is frustrating. However, I do interrupt my mother a lot when she is talking to me, but that is generally to say "Okay, I got it.", "I know what you are talking about much better than you do! Stop describing!", or "Quit whining!". Unfortunately, she always just ignores me and keeps on her bad habits. But oh well, you can't expect your parents to be perfect, right?

Lets just appreciate each other, I know sometimes we kinda get too excited when our friends telling a story, But hey..just wait till it finish.. Or they'll yelled at you

LET ME FINISH!!!!

Iphone for Steve = iPhone 4S

“Your time is limited, so don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma – which is living with the results of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinions drown out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary"


“Here’s to the crazy ones, the misfits, the rebels, the troublemakers, the round pegs in the square holes… the ones who see things differently — they’re not fond of rules… You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them, but the only thing you can’t do is ignore them because they change things… they push the human race forward, and while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius, because the ones who are crazy enough to think that they can change the world, are the ones who do.”


- Steve Jobs -
co-founder,chairman, and chief executive officer of Apple Inc.
chief executive of Pixar Animation Studios

May you rest in peace,Sir!

super weekie wupper treaty

weekend kemarin saya dan beberapa orang teman yang mempunyai niat yang sama, (baca: liburan) akhirnya memutuskan untuk tegur sapa ke laut di pulau Tidung. Perjalanan yang awalnya akan diikuti oleh 13 orang ini akhirnya berakhir di kami berdelapan. Berangkat!!

SUPER!!!Waktu liburan sangat berbanding lurus dengan tingkat kestress-an masing masing. Entah kenapa rasanya pemilihan tanggal ini sangat tepat. We did have a lot of fun.Although the sun smiling sooo bright and burn us, its not really a matter, when your eyes meet the blue skies and connect with the really blue and deep water....you'll feel blessed!! Bergabung dengan 2 orang teman baru di trip ini yang untungnya merupakan orang orang yang sangat menyenangkan.. they're really blend and fit to the group.Officially can't wait for my next trip..YAY!

"Let me be the one you call If you jump, I will break your fall, lift you up and fly away with you into the night If you need to fall apart, I can mend a broken heart, If you need to crash, then crash and burn, you're not alone"
-Crash and Burn by Savage Garden