silly little things that make me happy #1

boiled an egg  for breakfast. I like it half done. This morning I finally knew that I need exactly 7 minutes to let it stay in boiling water, to make it half-done. It came out perfectly just like what I want :))  and there's an extra milk in the fridge. What a nice way to start a routine.

nov21th randomness

copy from my tweet

rasa nyaman itu emang rate nya luar biasa dan bisa berujung g enak ati yah.Misal; karna udh nyaman ama isi kantornya,jd mau prusahaan sbenernya "merugikan diri" juga yaaaaah...fine.

atau gak, krna udh nyaman dan akrab bgt ama yg punya laundry,jadi even cucian kurang bersih yaaaa...fine aja.

Case lain,krna udh nyaman ama kmar kosan, walau aer kotor jam 8-11 pagi,,harga naik,,yg punya kostan kapitalis yaaaaa...fine ajah!

Karna udh nyaman berteman,jadi klo tmen nyebelin,ngeselin yaaaa fine ajah :)) in one point,we knew they didn't mean doin' that.

Tp ujung"nya bisa kluar rasa "ga enak" sendirii...

Pengen pindah ke laundry yg lbh baik,tp g enak karna si ibuk orangnya baik banget ramah banget (ˇ_ˇ'!l)

pengen tuker kerjaan,tp ga enak gara" isi kantor kayak udah seperjuangan bgt dan rasanya klo lepas 1 itu kayak "berkhianat" (ˇ_ˇ'!l)

Pindah kostan yg lbh baik,tapi yang ini strategis bgt,lingkungan bagus,aman,itungan masih murah buat jakarta dan banyak temen..(ˇ_ˇ'!l)

Masa cuma gara2 ga nyaman trus g temenan lagi sih..I love all my friends the way they are, in hope that they'll love as what I am too :')

Sekian pikiran tentang nyaman yg mendadak kepikir pagi ini gara gara nungguin air keran jadi bersih...slamaaat hari rabuu ​°\(^▿^)/°

gimme B!

November started as  sweet as it can be. To be honest i've got a lot "runaway" plan this month and really hope that it all going as well as it could. *finger crossing* 

This Bali trip was my first totally impulsive one. We just decided in about 5 minutes, booked a ticket, paid the hotel and wait for 8th November to come. We only have a full day friday and fourth day in saturday, so should make it as heavy as possible. Pandawa's beach, Klapa at Pecatu, Potato Head beach club, streetseeing kuta-legian, Kuta Beach Walk, and Biku's teashop are more than enough for us :) Here's some pics.

streets towards Pandawa's beach.

 Klapa's beach

 Klapa's resto

 Pandawa's virgin beach

Potato Head at Seminyak

Biku for breakfast














 Someone once said, "sometimes, travel is not about the destination, at one moment, who you really with is what matter". I found that true to believe. Well, at least for me its not ok if i go travel with someone who always "up to you" me, who's not supportive and who's not really into the trip. Can you imagine a trip to maldives with someone who's not really enjoy the trip, whinning much ,and etc..rather walk alone don't you :)

Cat Stevens

I always knew looking back on my tears would bring me laughter, but I never knew looking back on my laughter would make me cry

a twit

Dulu dia bilang mah "us againts the world"..

13 Agust yg lalu dia bilang "its you againts the world" #eaaaak! 
Oct 11, 2012 

love the way people lie?

Einstein once said that lie is the absence of truth.

I can guarantee,there's no one on earth that tellin' lied and being lied before. Nearly any adult will tell you that lying is wrong. But when it comes to avoiding trouble, saving face in front of the boss, or sparing someone’s feelings, many people find themselves doing it anyway. The deceptions point is most lies aren’t meant to be hurtful to others; rather, they’re meant to help the one doing the fibbing. 

Anyhoo, when it come to relationship or (even) friendship,I didn't recall such thing what people called ' white lie'. When you made a commitment with someone for not to lie to each other, keep it!. Because you have no idea what someone capable doing and think when he/she decide not to tell lies to you. Its hard but they keep it. Embrace it..don't cheat on it.

we can only getting hurt by someone we really care about.

Life Achievement Unlocked: Maroon 5

Been like a million years since I first landed an eargasm to this one.Since their This Love to their Daylight . I experienced what people would say, "an eargasm-eyegasm-Levinegasm experience." I sat on a best tribun seat (can't afford the festival oh i'm so sad)  , a great spot to view the whole stage, it was at the ISTORA Senayan , 4 months since the battle looking for tickets. they're sold out so quickly, I'm suspicious they'd hired the flash.

The show starts right on time (8 pm) with The Cab as opening act,although we have started queuing since 5'ish. Here's the thing when you come to a concert ,they really able to stand in line since 6 hours before they starts the show, in order to get the front row and best seat. You gotta run and fast,and hopefully do not interrupt the orderly queue. Fight for best seat and satisfied smile when you got it. Waiting in line, commenting on the people who pass in front of you. Hey, dont blame us cause when you saw many girls wearing a super heels to a concert and its festival class, believe me you're gonna mocking her too. Dont get me started on two lustful bule who never stopped kissing although many small children around them.Get a room! hahahaha....

Anyway, on June,we did really greatful when we're finally decide to bought the ticket. Despite all the financial issues that month, we bought the ticket knowing that we will be full with regret if we didn't. Don't judge, but 950.000 indonesian rupiah for a concert, pheww...is a lot of money for us.

So it was around 9 pm, when the light goes off and appear beautiful lamp appearance on stage and people started screaaaaming. I had a palpitations and goosebumps all over my body when they come up and the one Adam Levine said "Hello Jakarta" and played Payphone as opening. Five songs were from Overexposed album ,while the rest would still be catchy in your ears and of course melt your heart down. Who's heart won't melt if you're listening Adam Levine played She Will be Loved in acoustic version?. They also played Gym Class Heroes' Stereo Hearts and jammed a bit of Justin's Sexy back. So despite all other, the live show might still have place on any fan's heart. Played about 18 songs for two hours, I do feel satisfied.

Below are the song lists in Jakarta Oct 4th

1. Payphone (overexposed)
2. Makes Me Wonder (IWBSBL)
3. Lucky Strike (overexposed)
4. Sunday Morning (songs about jane)
5. If I Never See Your Face Again (IWBSBL)
6. Wipe Your Eyes (overexposed)
7. Won’t Go Home Without You (IWBSBL)
8. Harder to Breath (songs about jane)
9. Wake Up Call (IWBSBL)
10. One More Night (overexposed)
11. Hands All Over (hands all over)
12. Misery (hands all over)
13. This Love (songs about jane)
14. She Will Be Loved (songs about jane)
15. Stereo Hearts
16. Daylight (overexposed)
17. Don’t You Want Me Baby/Sexy Back/Moves like Jagger (hands all over)

moment-to-remember things :

* When someone throwed DAMN I LOVE INDONESIA t-shirt to him, immediately wear it, roll up the sleeves and told a bit story about their verexposed album. He said : " So our new album Overexposed has come out, we played a couple song from it tonight. Have you heard it? I don't care if you buy it, borrow it, or copy it from other. I don't even care if you get it from pirated. The most important thing is you're listen to it."

* at encore they played music from Moves Like Jagger and with all the sudden theres a sound of the hippiest gangnam Style and he said with laugh " I'm not gonna dance that shit, you want to hear me singing right?"

* James Valentine's singing while Adam Levine played the drums

* Adam Levine to be sure is one of the bootylicous!! 

* You will never forget all his moves..sexy one..damn nyam!

Adam Levine's worshipers

*fist bump*

P.S: You can check out more photos from the show at my Facebook Page

Nice quote, but umm...

Little life quote a read from Nylon magazine yesterday, 

- Never get tired of doing little things for others, for those little things occupy the biggest part of their hearts -

what I read is. But what if its doesn't happen? What if that people didn't knowing that you're able to do all those little things to them and yet they don't take that to their heart? What if you are already did all those little things and maybe bigger things to them, and they're not doing the same for you?

life lately,

* Office. Not good...here's come the worst part
* Got more sensitive feeling...im over period.
* Finally managed to try Cosmopolitan and Sangria..both not bad,nor good.
* Financially weakened
* 2 more days to Maroon5 concert, I'm too excited!
* Had to say goodbye to Genta, he's been shipping to next island.For good.
* Make a statement that I do become freak and peculiar when it come to friends-thing.
* (have to ) Get rid of "I-think-my -friends-doesnt-need-me-as-much-as-I-need_them" feeling.
* Jumping around knowing that Prince Charming and Snow White from Once Upon a Time is a real couple in life.
* Things that I asked all my bestfriends to give me on my last bday? Have to dismiss it and stop wanting it.
* Enjoying all new episode and season from Glee, HIMYM, New Girl, OUiT and BigBang Theory.
* Listening to jason Walker - Echo , on and on and on again
* super bored with the routine.super.bored.

humming to sole

on sept 22nd with all the random things in mind, headin' up to Bandung. Just in sake of newest cutest-coolest-hippest- place to eat in this city. Arrived at 8pm, straight to Hummingbird, next to city light sight seeing in Dago pakar and end up slept in Augusta Valley, Setiabudi. Next day drove to Krank Krink, Indieschetafel, Soleluna (the best!) and Lumberjack.. It was a fun day trip with bestfriends who had the most best laugh of all..Promise not to have a heavy conversation along the trip,just laugh,gossips,and eat eat eat!

Mr. Fitz

things been said...

Over thinking ruins you. Ruins the situation, twist things around, makes you worry and just makes everything much worse than it actually is.

THIS WEEK'S PHOTO

some photos taken this week...
Lets have some other fun next week!!

woohoooo!!

Quote of the week

" Its not about finding someone who won't fight with you or make you sad. Its about finding the person who will still be standing there wiping the tears away, holding you in their arms after a fight. The one who will never leave, no matter how hard things get"

sometimes inhale-exhale isnt enough

why i'm feeling super sensitive lately?

I already got my period, and next period should be at the end of the month. Hei yaaa,welcome september. I already hate you before so pleeeasee just play it safe, play it straight and let us move on to next month.

I really need to get this whole thing out of my head. Seriously, I even come to think "what am I doing with my life?"..or.. "what i'm gonna doing with my life?". Last night, me and one of my bestgirl already turn the lights off and hit the bed. With all the sudden, she come with one question, "Din, may I know anything about Lupus?".. Got me a little shocked but I told her everything I know about it. One thing led to another, it become a bit serious convo..

Lately, this whole month made realize a couple things..think think think..worry that I'll be overthink.

- Family always comes first,they said.But when you got married, which family is going to take predence? Which family coming first ? His/Her family, your family or your little family with him? Its really nice to see a couple who able to being fair and made both big family happy as they are. But, as long as my sighting,, I find its hard thing to do. Theres always one side who made it as a problem and come with frown heart.hahaha...One side will need more time with their big family. Talking my own relative, seems like he'd been "controlled" with his wife and put more credit to his wife family than his own. And its made me kinda sad being on his own family. I'm gonna give a super standing applause to people who could do it fair way :) So that everyone happy.

- World trying to tell us that people change..they aren't adopt,they change! Well, maybe they are adopt first and then get used to it and voila! You just like barely know them.Not to be offensive, but after a lot of tittle - tattle , however we come to an conclusion. : men's change when they got a job. well, how can it happen? We assumed thats because their ego comes a little bit more extreme because now that they thing they got some power over his own self , making his own money, and got busy with his own work. So maybe its better when you "meet" him after his got a job and has an employee status. I dont know, maybe its my own opinion (and lot of my girlfriends ;)), but it did happen! By that time you've got ti sing it with Gotye...now you're just somebody that I used to know..

- Sometimes when people said, easy come easy go, I will not that easy to believe that. But now, believe me, its true!!!!

- I remember on one episode of Friends when Joey and Phoebe fight about good deeds, and Joey being a stubborn one and think that there's nothing such a good deeds. People always want something. And Phoebe insist that there is one. But on this, I am Team Joey. I  also think that there is no such things such a good deeds, people always want it back to them. Something back to them. Even for a probono thing and you donate something, you must be want a pleasure feeling. When you did a nice things to people, you must be want they did the same thing to you. In my Religion, it called ilmu Ikhlas, and it did really really hard to conceive. 

- People said when you be nice to your friends, they will do the same thing to you.. Well, that was people said.

- Carpe Diem. or nowadays people called it YOLO (You Only Live Once).Seize the day. Live for today, tomorrow is a different story. Say it to yourself, like Matt Damon said on We Bought A Zoo - all we need is 20 second of insane courage - . But pleeeaaassseeeee,  DON'T imply it on your wallet and bank account. I'm the one who hit the rock bottom. Take it from me, its not easy live in this big city and your alone without your family on your side to support you. In the past few years, I always think like that, we always can find money,but hey, theres no harm to use it wisely right ;) . It hit me when I realize that I cant hold it to my older brother anymore, he has a live too, and of course I cant ask my mom for money anymore, i'm the who should give it to her. I am the one who have to support myself.Guess life is getting hard ha? hahahahhaha Don't be surprise if knowing a fact that I always put a envy to people my age who always get what they want cause they still "have" parent to ask for it ;) *you know what I mean* 

- We always wanna look great and super strong, even in front of our bestfriend. We always intend to hide the feeling and put it under the blanket. Let it hide and try to never show it off. But, sometimes its good to release some vein and tell the prob to person you believe. Some people might think they don't wanna share it because they don't wanna make it hard to everybody and bothered them. Trust me, it won't. They probably even help you solve your problem, but hey a least you a bit relieved. That's what friend are for right?. Because again, ,maybe they have some story that they wanna tell you and its hard for them too. Win win solutions.

- take a day off and have a Me Time... you need that!

Well, think thats quite enough for me to wrote in this calm evening..Cup of tea would be nice... 

lebaran rasa mudik

habis puasa terbitlah lebaran..

buat saya yang gadis minang ini, rasanya agak kurang afdol kalo g pake acara mudik. Namun apa daya, finansial dan keadaan kantor g memungkinkan untuk cabut dan solat Ied di kampung halaman :( Tadinya memang saya berniat untuk lebaran kali ini stay di Bogor saja, karena libur kantor yang sedikit dan tiket yg mahal (ga pake lumayan!!), tapi suatu ketika telpon genggam saya berdering di suatu hari dan tertera tulisan "mamah" dilayarnya.. apa yang bakal kamu lakuin kalo orang tua kamu yang tinggal satu itu nelpon dan bilang " yaaah kamu g pulang lebaran? mama pengennya lebaran sama kamu". JEDERR!!!! Right at the moment when we hung up the phone, I get back to my computer and browsing. Yup, i'm looking for a super reasonable ticket to go. Finger Crossing.

Lebaran rasa rumah. Saya baru inget kalau lebaran tahun kemarin kami sekeluarga emang ngerayainnya d depok, its been quite long not to spend it in bukttinggi. Lebaran di Jakarta ini rasanya kurang lebaran,,jalanan sepi..sanak saudara pada jauh jauh..jadi aja setelah solat ied di rumah Bunda di Bogor, yang ada kita malah tidur - tiduran dan nontonin HBO ampe pusing. Abang saya yg paling tua ikut lebaran dirumah bunda karena dia juga dapet jatah liburnya dikit. Segitu pentingnya ya buat tv nayangin sinetron ampe crew nya g dapet jatah libur yang make sense? hahahah. Hari kedua baru deh kita ketemuan ama kakak dan spupunya si mamah di Grand Indo, yes..mall..Mall again for lebaran!!crap! Hei did I tell you that I got my ticket? Yes, I got my ticket to pulang kampung di hari ke3 lebaran..not bad lah..

Jadinya setelah delay nyaris 4 jam dan macet di padang menuju bukittinggi selama 6 jam,,sampai deh dirumaaah...Nyokap bahkan nrela nge-hold open house makan siang ama keluarga Jirek sampesaya nongol..yay!!

Yaaah walaupun traffic di Bukittinggi waktu lebaran itu sama aja kayak mindahin macetnya Jakarta,tetep diusahain jalan jalan sambil silaturahmiii.. Saya bahkan sempat berkunjung kerumah wali kelas dan bertemu dengan beberapa teman lama. Ketawa ketawa dan nostalgia sama mereka itu tak pernah mengecewakan :))

Senang rasanya melihat si mamah ketawa terus, g pernah ngomong capek. Rasanya mikirin apaaaaa ya yang kira kira bisa saya bantu buat mamah biar dia makin seneng. Kalo urusan beres beres rumah mah g usah ditanya, itu udah pasti ke handle dengan baik ditangan saya *idung mengembang*. Akhirnya bantuan yang diberikan adalah : Free driver!!!

hahaha yup, Mom's not allowed to drive the car, I drove her anywhere she wanna go. FYI, my mom's car is Grand Taft 4x4, can you imagine how heavy and hard the steer wheel?! *pijitpijettangan* My reward to self adalah berhasil nyetir Bukittinggi - Padang (its like jakarta - bandung via puncak) super yay!!!!

see you next year,home :*

Thankyou Nolan

“Alfred. Gordon. Lucius. Bruce... Wayne. Nama-nama yang sangat berarti untuk saya. Sekarang, tiga pekan lagi saya akan mengucapkan kata-kata perpisahan terakhir pada karakter-karakter tersebut dan pada dunia mereka. Ini merupakan ulang tahun kesembilan anakku. Dia lahir saat Tumbler dibangun di garasiku dari beberapa bagian peralatan model acak. Seiring berjalannya waktu, banyak yang berubah. Perubahan di lokasi syuting di mana adu tembak dan helikopter dulu merupakan perhelatan yang luar biasa dan melibatkan banyak pemain tambahan, penghancuran gedung, atau pertarungan di udara, kini menjadi biasa.”

“Orang-orang selalu bertanya apakah kami berencana untuk membuat sebuah trilogi. Ini sama seperti ketika ditanya apakah kamu mempunyai rencana untuk tumbuh dewasa, menikah, dan punya anak. Jawabannya rumit. Ketika David dan saya pertama kali membahas cerita Bruce, kami bergurau tentang masa depan film ini, kemudian mundur, tidak ingin melihat terlalu jauh ke depan. Aku tidak ingin tahu hal apa pun yang tidak bisa diketahui oleh Bruce; aku ingin menjalaninya bersama.”

“Saya mengatakan pada David dan Jonah untuk memasukkan semua unsur yang mereka tahu ke dalam setiap film ketika kami membuatnya. Seluruh pemeran dan kru juga mencurahkan semuanya pada film pertama. Tidak ada yang ditahan-tahan. Tidak ada yang disimpan untuk lain waktu. Mereka membangun seluruh kota. Kemudian Christian (Bale) dan Michael (Caine) dan Gary (Oldman) dan Morgan (Freeman) dan Liam (Neeson) dan Cillian (Murphy) mulai hidup di dalamnya. Christian sangat menjiwai kehidupan Bruce Wayne dan membuatnya sangat meyakinkan. Dia membawa kita ke jalan pikiran seorang ikon pop dan tidak pernah membiarkan kita menyadari sedikit pun khayalan Bruce.”

“Saya tidak pernah menyangka kami akan membuat lanjutan keduanya — lagipula berapa banyak sih sekuel yang bagus? Namun saya tahu ke mana arah film itu akan membawa Bruce, dan ketika saya mulai melihat peran antagonis, hal itu menjadi penting. Kami mengumpulkan tim kembali dan kembali menuju Gotham. Setelah tiga tahun berlalu, kota itu jadi berbeda. Lebih besar. Lebih nyata. Lebih modern. Dan ada kekuatan kekacauan baru yang dihadirkan. Badut yang sangat menakutkan, yang dibawakan secara menakutkan oleh Heath (Ledger).”

“Namun ada hal-hal yang dulu di film pertama belum bisa kami lakukan — kostum Bat dengan leher yang fleksibel, dan merekam film dalam format IMAX. Dan hal-hal yang kami takut untuk lakukan, seperti menghancurkan Batmobile, membakar uang haram dari para penjahat. Kami menganggap kesempatan sekuel tersebut sebagai izin untuk tidak perlu mengkhawatirkan apapun dan menggarap sisi Gotham yang lebih kelam.”

“Saya tidak pernah menyangka kami akan membuat lanjutan ketiganya — memangnya ada sekuel kedua yang bagus? Namun saya tetap penasaran tentang akhir perjalanan Bruce, dan ketika David dan saya menemukannya, saya harus memastikannya sendiri. Kami kembali pada suatu hal yang kami bahkan takut untuk membisikkannya dulu ketika pertama kali di garasi saya. Kami membuat sebuah trilogi. Saya menghubungi semua orang untuk kembali berpetualang di Gotham. Empat tahun kemudian, beginilah. Film ini terlihat lebih bersih, lebih cemerlang. Wayne Manor telah dibangun kembali. Wajah-wajah familiar telah kembali. Sedikit lebih tua, sedikit lebih bijak... namun tidak semua yang tampak seperti yang terlihat.”

“Fondasi Gotham membusuk. Sebuah kejahatan bangkit dari bawah tanah. Bruce menganggap bahwa Batman sudah tidak lagi diperlukan, namun Bruce salah, seperti saya juga. Batman harus kembali. Saya rasa dia akan selalu kembali.”

“Michael, Morgan, Gary, Cillian, Liam, Heath, Christian...Bale. Nama-nama yang sangat berarti untuk saya. Waktu saya di Gotham, mencari salah satu tokoh yang paling hebat dan bertahan di budaya pop, merupakan pengalaman yang paling kaya sekaligus menantang yang pernah diharapkan dapat dilakukan oleh semua sutradara. Saya akan merindukan Batman. Saya rasa dia akan merindukan saya, namun dia tidak pernah secengeng itu.” 

- Cristopher Nolan, 2012-

Batman Begins

The Dark Knight

The Dark Knight Rises.

Super big thanks Nolan, to me they are Perfect!!!

July,17th 2012

things i found on tumblr.

The funny thing is, nobody ever really knows how much anybody else is hurting. We could be standing next to somebody who is completely broken and we wouldn't even know it.

these days...

• Hate my old blackberry.. It keep jams. 
• Proud to finally experienced how to play paint ball
• Addicted to Sean Lennon's - Parachute
• in the right mood to eat crispy salmon aburi
• Told my self to stop eating Lays Nori. again and again....failed.
• Feels so happy knowing that Lea- Cory and also  Andrew - Emma are real couples in life.
• Currently watching Dont Trust the B in Apt 23 and Grey's Anatomy.
• Really cant wait Dark Knight Rises on theater near me .
• Learned that jealous is a bitch...dont let heart take over our brain.
• Miss to have a long and good conversation.
• Scored the Temple Run's top score on ipod.
• Cant wait to step into the beach again.
• had a vulnerable and lonely moment.
• Realize that we quit because we tried hardest and nothing made it better.
• Really really miss watching HIMYM and Glee and Big Bang Theory. Cant wait for September.

         :)

Zarry's strike again

Semoga tidak kamu lagi

Ada rasa sedih saat melihatmu bahagia. Bukan karena aku tidak ingin kamu bahagia, melainkan karena bukan aku yang membahagiakanmu. Itu menyakitkan, seperti pukulan yang sebenarnya ingin buatku tersadar. Mungkin ini waktu untuk aku terpuruk, supaya aku dapat melihat Tuhan memakai kenangan ini untuk buatku dipenuhi kesiapan, sehingga doa dapat melahirkan semangat dan kemudian buatku bangkit. 

1953 - 2002

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA

ITS JUNE 26TH 2012

MAY YOU ALWAYS REST IN PEACE

another June 25th.

Hai Pa,

This June 25th 2012 marked as your 10th anniversary of rest in peace. 

Its been 10th years since 2002.

well, lotta things happen this year Pa,mom's getting old. She choose to come back and stay at Rumah Gadang. Its been a hard decision to finally let her go and lived there alone by herself. Really by her self.She's getting old,Pa. We can't and shouldn't let her live alone in that house.  But as we know, she's really happy to be there. Its like she'd often got sick in Jakarta, tired and fever because of the weather changes. And as far as we know, in Rumah gadang, she never ever got sick until nowadays. We assume that means she's relaxed :) 5 years in this big city is enough for her.

as for Ami, she's still in that remote area..She's doing great,having fun and had the moments she never had in her entire live before. A lot of friends to hang out with, love interest, a love to what she's been doing, come visit to Jakarta and the most important is she's got to be and do the independent. hopefully it'll make her more mature and grow up :)).  Rhino's been living for a while in 4E now, all together with his wifey and 2 kids and his brother in law following him. Had a job in production house,. To be honest i don't really get what's he doing,but he seems preety happy and well-fed..so I bet its good for him. Since he decided to take over the 4E, Kiki's have to move out and find someplace else to stay. Now he's staying in about 10m from 4E. Still doin' some series and sit in a assistant director's chair, nailed an indie movie for an actress couple months ago, find a love and then break up again,hahahhahahaha.. 

I'm still hangin in same office,Pa. Its been a bif of confusion for people around me, include mom. See, the office is about to shut down due to some corruption. We had to fired some of the employee, strain the outcome, work harder , doing multiple task because of the employee's cutback. Trembling at every end of the month wondering whether we can pay the employees and the resources or not. and its really not helping when your director/owner not around and seems dont care at all. People keep asking,why on earth am i still doing there. Well, for me its for the professional's sakes. If im out now, there's no one can handle my job and the company will not be saved, my friends sometimes don't get it. Fine by me, people are free to have their own opinion. At least I probably will stay here until the final decision. As for love story, well... kinda still stuck with the wrong situation but right person :) This strong differences in belief has literally killed me. He's,by this far, the best man i ever met (excuse my excessive). You're for sure gonna like him,Pa. He's got almost all your best too. Discipline, hard worker, thinker, family man, wise and lot of another good thing (again, excuse my excessive). But, its when down with the belief things. Its ok,i'm okay. This is the best decision for us. Mom's said,I'll get better one. 

Aunt Nunu visited me in last march, stay a night in my board house. We talked about lot of things and she cried for me in the morning. Shocked me. She's cried over my love story, my living, and my self. She never expect me to live this independent and had this much problem and still okay with that. Hey, you're the one who teach me to be tough. I simply said to Aunt Nunu, " Dont worry, I can take care of myself" and yes I DO.

I cant imagine what will happen in our life of you still breathing here with us. Its surely gonna be much much much better life :) We probably gonna live in Kalimantan for couple years and then moving again,we're gonna have a weekly schedule to go to the cinema - movies this day is really getting better and big and 3D and had greaaat story,Pa-, we're gonna have a lot of holiday trip, enjoying karaoke once a month, eat a lot kind of food, maybe get to do a midnight beer,  and lot of smile a long the way :)

The point is, you need to know that we're OK,Pa. Don't worry :)

kisses.


*write to you again next year...