suddenly..

Truth is, aku tidak tahu tujuanku apa.  I have no idea where I’m going in life.  And it gets pretty scary sometimes if I let myself think about it.  Yang aku tahu hanya menjalani hidup ini one day at a time, bekerja, makan, tidur, tertawa, ngobrol.  As long as I got some jobs to do and men to do, I’m fine.  I should be fine. 

we are stronger

2013 is kinda a crisis year for some of us..we're turning 26 years old this year. Well, to be honest, for me age is just a number, I am one of those people who though 'what is number if you can't act as your age'.. But still, if you bring it to your society and our eastern culture, 26 is the age where a women forced to think about marriage, kids and stuff. I plan to write about this stuff in one post,later :). Anyhoo, other than those things above, I really consider to think about my own life. I think I have problem to decide which path I want to walk on. More on questioning my self lately. What is I really really want. I've been in this super comfort zone for a while,pffft..for too long.  Too long that I surely can see a fungus in my brain. But not too long to think I maybe a lil afraid to move on to other place whereas maybe have a better view. I really need to move on, move out from this super comfort zone.. I even hate my self lately.. I miss me hahaha. Once I'd read somewhere, 

Life's never getting easy, but we're getting stronger. 

people who smile in rain

dering telpon nyaring berbunyi di minggu siang . Seseorang di masa lalu tiba tiba mengabarkan kalau dia sedang berada di sekitaran Jakarta dan mengajak bertemu sekedar untuk bertukar berita.

Rasanya sudah terlalu lama saya tidak berjumpa dengan pria satu ini. Bitter story from the past terlalu membuat saya benci untuk bahkan mengetahui kabar keberadaannya. Tak banyak teman dekat saya yang tau mengenai algojo yang satu ini. Saya pun rasanya malu untuk kembali merasa bodoh jika harus menceritakan kisahnya ke teman teman.

Entah kenapa, ingatan-ingatan itu muncul liar di kepala saya pagi ini. Bermunculan tanpa ampun, Seperti kembang api tahun baru yang tak hentinya menghiasi langit. Indah, namun berisiknya minta ampun.

Ah saya tau kenapa.

Saya menatap namanya di dalam daftar orang yang mengirimkan permintaan berteman di Facebook. Nama itu memang sudah lama muncul, sekitar sebulan terakhir. Saya diamkan karena saya berpikir, buat apa? Dia sudah dengan kehidupannya dan saya dengan kehidupan saya. Tapi saya pun tak kunjung menghapusnya dari daftar nama itu.

Sampai pagi ini. Saya menyetujui permohonan bertemannya.

Setelah itu saya tersenyum kecil. Ini cuma social media platform, kalo orangnya gak asik, ya tinggal delete friend aja kan?

here comes the 2013

bye 2012

to be honest, I did happy in 2012. Trips,family,friends but not romance kind a way hahaha..But let leave all in that year of turmoil and face 2013 with happy face.

I really put a lot of hope in this new year..well, who's not..

One thing I really wanna put first is my worship to God. First thing first!

Happy new year!!!

silly little things that make me happy #1

boiled an egg  for breakfast. I like it half done. This morning I finally knew that I need exactly 7 minutes to let it stay in boiling water, to make it half-done. It came out perfectly just like what I want :))  and there's an extra milk in the fridge. What a nice way to start a routine.

nov21th randomness

copy from my tweet

rasa nyaman itu emang rate nya luar biasa dan bisa berujung g enak ati yah.Misal; karna udh nyaman ama isi kantornya,jd mau prusahaan sbenernya "merugikan diri" juga yaaaaah...fine.

atau gak, krna udh nyaman dan akrab bgt ama yg punya laundry,jadi even cucian kurang bersih yaaaa...fine aja.

Case lain,krna udh nyaman ama kmar kosan, walau aer kotor jam 8-11 pagi,,harga naik,,yg punya kostan kapitalis yaaaaa...fine ajah!

Karna udh nyaman berteman,jadi klo tmen nyebelin,ngeselin yaaaa fine ajah :)) in one point,we knew they didn't mean doin' that.

Tp ujung"nya bisa kluar rasa "ga enak" sendirii...

Pengen pindah ke laundry yg lbh baik,tp g enak karna si ibuk orangnya baik banget ramah banget (ˇ_ˇ'!l)

pengen tuker kerjaan,tp ga enak gara" isi kantor kayak udah seperjuangan bgt dan rasanya klo lepas 1 itu kayak "berkhianat" (ˇ_ˇ'!l)

Pindah kostan yg lbh baik,tapi yang ini strategis bgt,lingkungan bagus,aman,itungan masih murah buat jakarta dan banyak temen..(ˇ_ˇ'!l)

Masa cuma gara2 ga nyaman trus g temenan lagi sih..I love all my friends the way they are, in hope that they'll love as what I am too :')

Sekian pikiran tentang nyaman yg mendadak kepikir pagi ini gara gara nungguin air keran jadi bersih...slamaaat hari rabuu ​°\(^▿^)/°

gimme B!

November started as  sweet as it can be. To be honest i've got a lot "runaway" plan this month and really hope that it all going as well as it could. *finger crossing* 

This Bali trip was my first totally impulsive one. We just decided in about 5 minutes, booked a ticket, paid the hotel and wait for 8th November to come. We only have a full day friday and fourth day in saturday, so should make it as heavy as possible. Pandawa's beach, Klapa at Pecatu, Potato Head beach club, streetseeing kuta-legian, Kuta Beach Walk, and Biku's teashop are more than enough for us :) Here's some pics.

streets towards Pandawa's beach.

 Klapa's beach

 Klapa's resto

 Pandawa's virgin beach

Potato Head at Seminyak

Biku for breakfast














 Someone once said, "sometimes, travel is not about the destination, at one moment, who you really with is what matter". I found that true to believe. Well, at least for me its not ok if i go travel with someone who always "up to you" me, who's not supportive and who's not really into the trip. Can you imagine a trip to maldives with someone who's not really enjoy the trip, whinning much ,and etc..rather walk alone don't you :)

Cat Stevens

I always knew looking back on my tears would bring me laughter, but I never knew looking back on my laughter would make me cry

a twit

Dulu dia bilang mah "us againts the world"..

13 Agust yg lalu dia bilang "its you againts the world" #eaaaak! 
Oct 11, 2012